I haven't written to you in close to a month and I feel really bad. It's not like I didn't want to write, but my creative block spanned across every single one of my social media pages. I haven't been creating anything and at some point, I felt like I should not even be called a content creator anymore because I was not creating a single thing.
You know how it's like, there's content around you but you just don't want to or feel like creating? You don't? How about when what you need is really close to you but you're unable to identify it soon enough to actually use it before time passes? Yeah, that.
So, I'm officially on summer break. About that course whose test I failed, I eventually passed it and I don't have to retake it anymore 😭🥳! Y'all, God favoured me. My GPA is not what I thought it would be, but at least, God didn't allow me to fail. That's huge, you guys. I'm so happy.
You remember I said I'm on summer break now? Sike! I had great plans for this break but all I do is watch YouTube videos and then, go to work. I work most evenings. It's not the most convenient thing for me on weekends, especially because buses don't move after 6 pm on Sundays and I work till 10 most times.
I've been having a bit of uncertainty with some choices I made when I got here too. I can't go into details because it's personal to me but you'll probably hear about it in the future. My walk with God is getting better. I've found that listening to sermons on YouTube helps me understand what I read in the Bible and I'm also going back to my Youversion Devotionals. By God's grace, there won't be any relapse anymore.
You see how I just told you everything going on in my life in the preceding paragraphs? That's how I need you to tell me how you're doing as well. If you don't want to respond here so everyone won't see it, you can send a reply to this email. I might not be able to respond if you send me a message on WhatsApp because my laziness has touched it too and I have hundreds of unread messages waiting for me. Thank you.
Adulthood na scam. If you still disagree till now, may God help you. I recently just realised that I'm like Joseph in a way. My siblings didn't sell me o. It's just that, Joseph was the only one in a foreign country. That's me too. My siblings and parents are not here with me and sometimes, when people do certain things to me, I feel like it's because I have no family here.
Let me be honest. I've become really sensitive to what people do to me recently, and I also guage their reactions if I tell them how their actions made me feel. Sadly, 99.9% of the time, HS has asked me to move on because these people will only hold it against me in the future. It's not like they're bad people. The thing is that, I'm trying not to fall back into my lukewarm state and I equally don't need that type of vibe around me.
Adulting is being intentional about the type of influence you allow people to have over you.
I now have to be responsible for myself and the things I do. I missed having my parents to worry about me and be my fall back plan if I ever make any wrong decision. I still have them, but they're not here with me. If I do something wrong and they carry me, nobody can call my parents to come. I'm so grateful I have the Holy Spirit to discern the actions I carry out for me.
Adulting is understanding that nobody will clear your mess for you. In the words of my secondary school Chemistry teacher, “you break, you pay”.
I also have to know when to seek counsel and advice.
A nation will fall if it has no guidance. Many advisers mean security. Proverbs 11:14 GNT.
As much as I would love to go with the idea I have in my mind, I also need to speak to the people God has placed in my life as my ‘advisers’. On this one, a very dear friend advised me to start a podcast instead. When I told her I felt like people would laugh at me (they actually did once and I stopped), she reminded me that I once told her to ignore people's voices. Guess who's finding it hard to take her own advise. Thank you, Léa!
Adulting is recognising when you need help, and knowing the right people to meet for it.
There are some days when it's really hard to keep going. On those days, it's easy to crawl into a hole and refuse to do anything. But God knows how to send His own to remind you that you're making a big mistake and are about to pause His divine plan for you. It's really easy to get replaced. On those days, my favourite hype squad, The Storyteller Sarah and Whitefire, are always there to send me their super long messages with a million reasons as to why I am the Golden girl and nothing else and why the world needs me to not rest at that point.
Adulting is having a strong support system to wake you when you're asleep. No sleeping here please!
Finally, some things have just started to appear clearer to me. Things I would judge outrightly because I had unknowingly put on a holier-than-thou attitude. I started to realise that people have their individual works with God, and that not everyone has the same background as I do. Some people are honestly trying to be better and do better and they don't need condemnation because it'll only make them backslide.
There's another angle to this though. If they're not trying to be better, I still won't judge them. There's a reason King Solomon said all is vanity. He didn't say it at the beginning of his life because he didn't realise it then. This is not me saying bad things are actually good. They're not. This is me saying, however, that in trying to make others see how some things are just vain and will fade away, that I don't become the reason they choose not to follow Christ.
Adulting is prioritising your relationship with God, and also understanding how your own actions affect everybody else and their own walk with God.
There is no condemnation now for those who live in union with Christ Jesus.
Romans 8:1 GNT
What other definitions do you think should be given to adulting? Tell me in the comments please. About the podcast, you heard it first! I don't know how it will go and I'm still waiting on God for the path to take . I also hope I don't disappear again because it took one of the people I look up to to dragme out of my laziness in writing.
Till next time,
Wúràọlá, The Golden girl.
Please don’t disappear again.
Sometimes breaks are needed. If those times comes, take break.
Adulting is scam
I have been studying in a place my parent or siblings are not there and I know how it could be.